I was sitting in Osaka station this weekend watching the typical rush to get to somewhere and wondering if I like it or not. I don’t know if I am simply accepting this life or fighting it because I think I need to. Do I need to be around people? My friends would probably argue that I am a people person. In my heart I only want people to smile and be good to one another. Have a good time.
Lately though I’ve been thinking that people are intrinsically selfish, which they should be to some point. Judging others is something else. Just because one person is in need of a resource or affection does not mean another person can judge their needs to be right or wrong. I say this because I need to work among them and working among these judgemental people makes life unrewarding. What’s the point of life when all you’re doing is struggling to get through it.
I LOVE life. When it isn’t fun anymore, I find fun. That’s where I am right now. Maybe it’s the people I’m around or not around that bothers me. Maybe it’s that I can’t speak to these people. I feel isolated yet within reach of the answer.